Thursday, March 23, 2006

God needs to have his head examined

Can I just say.......I HAVE HAD IT WITH GOD!. My friend Molly sent me an e-card that states," God doesn't give us anything that we can't handle." Well, I'm not sure about that these days. First....God must have decided that Matt and I would be good canidates for 2 babies instead of one. I am not sure why, but he did. Then, after watching us struggle with raising not 1 but 2 babies...he must have thought we were doing a great job becuse he decided that we needed another set. Not only a second set, but a set that comes 2 months early, and has to spend 26 and 39 days in the NICU. You would have thought that would have been enough, right? God must be smokin' something because he decided that not only should we have 4 beautiful babies, but he thought, "Heck, they are doing such a great job, let's throw in a twist. Let's give their daughter Riley a brain disorder that could possibly one day paralize her or even worse, take her life." Matt and I adjusted and are reasearching everything we can about A. Chiari Malformation and Doctors who specialize in it. Well, God must not have been pleased on how well we are adjusting. Then he says, "Let's throw in a little something for Cooper, their 3rd child. Let's give him something not so dramatic, but that would need surgery to fix." So, God blessed Cooper with a hernia. It's easy to fix, but once again....it's another hurdle for Matt and Cindy to jump over. We will over come this on April 7th at Children's Hospital and Cooper should do well. Well, you would think that God would atleast wait until Cooper's surgery is over to throw something else at us. Nope, he must feel we need one more thing at this point. So, God says," Little Miss Carson, the youngest of the Cole kids - let's give her an issue with her head. Matt and Cindy handled Riley's ACM so well, let's see how they handle this one." So, Carson had a CT scan the other day and the radiologist found that the bones behind her soft spot are starting to fuse together. Not good. Her head looks like it could fit into a toaster. The fuse is not letting her head grow the width way, but only the length way. So, she will be joinging Riley in seeing the Neurosurgeon.
So, God says, "This should keep Matt and Cindy busy for awhile. In the mean time, I will let Keegan be the healthy child."

Ok, now God....if you are reading this blog.....would you mind taking a few hours to explain WHY you believe that Matt and I can handle all of this??? I am dying to know!

3 comments:

Lost A Sock said...

If at any time in my life I would question God the most, what you're going through would be IT. As a mom, you want to protect your kids from everything, and you want them to be perfect. Then when one of them is sick, it's hard. Then two? And THREE? Three kids possibly needing surgery in a month?? Two of them dealing with their brain?? You're holding up better than I ever would. Keep talking. We're here to listen.

And great pictures of the kids, too. :0)

Anonymous said...

Oh Cindy,I feel for you. You guys are in our prayers, Honey. I know you need to question God, but please know that even when it seems the worst, know that God still loves you and is carrying you and Matt and the kids, all through this. Perhaps it's to test the faith of others to see if we turn to Him in prayer for you or if we turn and damn Him like so many do. Here's a hug and a prayer, Sweetheart, we're praying. Love, Molly's mom

Diane Arias said...

I don't know why either, or what The Big Guy's plan is for your family. But, yes, keep asking the quesions we're listening.

Love the pix! Keep 'em coming!